But, it’s okay.
Today, I’m focusing on what I did achieve, no matter how small. I got out of bed this morning. I made coffee. I drove my boyfriend to work. I took a shower. I brushed my teeth. I washed my face. I drew a picture. I did yoga. My hair looks badass. And, I ate food today.
When you’re depressed, this is a long list of major accomplishments for you. All of these are each a giant mountain you have to conquer. And I did it.
After doing my yoga practice, I almost cried. I was so overwhelmingly happy that I actually did something on my To-Do list! I actually accomplished something I set out to do. And while I fell back into old, ancient habits afterwards, I still felt better about myself.
This recovery process, I’ve decided, I’ll take one day at a time and update you when things happen. I’m so proud of myself for doing the small things I did, one day it’ll all add up and I’ll be able to accomplish so much more. I can’t wait for that day.