Don’t give up.
It’s time I take a physical and mental stand to the depression that has gotten me down this past week. I have not been myself, I’ve been moody and tired. I’ve been annoying myself. I don’t like this person I’ve been. And I have reasons to fight.
In the past, I would have let depression run its course. Not any longer. I let it stay for a week, catch up and hang out. Now, it’s time to go. With a new week beginning, (Monday didn’t count, my boyfriend was off work) it’s the perfect time to start new.
Normally, I’d begin with writing down everything I want to do. But, that hasn’t worked in the past and trying to write before doing things is holding me back. So, I’m just going to start.
My apartment is a mess, nothing is where I want it to be. There’s clutter on the patio, there’s clutter in the bedroom. Honestly, it won’t take much work to get things done. But depression makes it seem like a mountain. Even writing this, I’m losing motivation.
God, just let me stay strong, give me hope, I want to be myself again.