It’s In The Little Things

It’s the little things that let you know you’re going to be okay. It’s the feeling of joy even after having a difficult day. 

This morning started out with my big fur baby having a big accident on the bedroom carpet. Then, I just felt like shit because of it. I lost all motivation. I was so hard on myself, angry with myself for feeling this way. 

I learned something today, though. You’ve got to accept that when you’re depressed, you can’t do everything you want to, and it’s OKAY. Its totally normal and acceptable. Set small goals for yourself like getting out of bed, showering, brushing your teeth, and making coffee (or tea). If you accomplish those, you’re living. You’re surviving this darkness. 

After I accepted the fact that it’s okay I didn’t do much, that’s when I felt a weight lift off of me and I was able to do things. I didn’t expect this, I expected to go lay down on the sofa and nap! But, no. Instead, I was able to do dishes and even set up my printer so I can print my photos. It made me so happy that I finally did some things. I can’t tell you the joy I felt after a week of being told I can’t do shit by some voice other than my own. 

I don’t know what tomorrow holds. I don’t know if I’ll be the same, better, or worse. But I’ll be alive and that’s all I can ask for. Another day of air in my lungs and my heart beating. 



Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s